"wherever there is a mole, there you are"

Today was funnnnn. (: i like. So many things happened today. My god, anything could happen and change the things you've got planned.

Well, this morning everything was dull and rainy. Today was relaxing to me, (no accounting, we didn't do anything for GP) and i decided to have my PS. My heart couldn't stop fluttering, my friends kept on teasing me about DB, yea, I just couldn't wait to see him (: Everyone has been asking me who's DB. You'd just have to figure out BY YOURSELF. Please don't ask around, it's embarrassing. And once you know, just keep it to yourself. ): I'm to... idk, it's just awkward. It's not even official.

Oh, I saw him laugh and smile for the first time. (: teeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeee. So anyways, in the afternoon I didn't have Accounting class, so I went down early. That's when I caught a glimpse of his smile. OH. hehehe i'm still angau.

Ryna wanted me to blog something, Hi rynn. If you're reading. I'll blog at the bottom ah? sabar.

So at around 3+ Kojack picked us up for late lunch at Nyonya (sp?) (:
In the car Jeebs and Nad kept on mentioning I keep on saying OMG, like shizzzzzzzz. haha cali lah.
So when we got back to school, it was around 4, Jeebs and Ryna were the first to go home, so it was Me and Nad. I was bored so we walked over to DB sitting area. (: and I talked about why and how it's just, maybe just a feeling or I really want this. I just don't know. I didn't really have much time talking to them. Just telling them what I felt and stuff.
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So here Ryna's post:
Hi rynn, you want to know what I want to blog about? I want to blog about why I think David Beckham won't notice me. Well, firstly, I just think I'm not his type, sure we could be friends, it's just that, what makes him want to change what's he's comfortable with? Being around his friends, just being on the down low. While I'm loud, silly and loves to be around people. Why would he notice a girl like me? sure notice as in sees around, but nothing special.
I'll continue blogging nanti. I don't know what to blog about...

Tears won't get you anything.

Hello people, I haven't been blogging for awhile since there is no Internet access at home. Bummer. Anyways, it's the 3rd week of U6 and i think A2 is easier than AS. Maybe this is because i feel more dedicated to do my work than last year.

I'm at a place where I don't want to think about childish things and try to aim good grades to go on the next stages of life. I had it easy, the fact that I failed malay is nothing... I have to do better for form 6. It's not as easy as Os, even if you don't study you would get Bs and As.

And i'm at the place where I want to do something about my weight. Yes, I admit 100x and more that i'm not fit. I'd like to lose weight before my next appointment to the doctors. Maybe I'd drop 20kg :D hahaha being optimistic. It's good to be positive right? ):

I skipped THS yesterday... cause i knew we weren't going to do anything but sit there in the ICT room and look at pointless websites. Sigh.I MUST promise myself that..... i will TRY to avoid skipping. Accounting I have got to put an effort in it cause I need 150% to pass that crappy subject. ):

I have so many things to say and i'll try to do it on this one post 'cause i don't know when i can update: SO here goes!!!

3 weeks of school and my cousin tells me i look darker. :\ maybe that's because i put an effort on jogging lately. I don't want to jog at my kpg, the cars are TOO "FAST AND FURIOS." urgh...

I would do everything it takes to be with my grandad until he goes. ♥

Okay... hahaha i forgot what i was about to type.. but i'l update soon

with love, Fee ♥

make over.

Well, I'm dye-ing my hair Dark Auburn. I want to see something different done to my hair. My virgin black hair (did try to dye once but didn't work)

Bye bye black, hello auburn.

Hope everything turns the right shade of colour. ♥

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To a lighter note:

Exams Finals are gonna be over TOMORROWWW.

But I have AS in a week. Greaaaaaaaaaaat.

Everything ends at 13th November!

Sighhh.

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This 10th of Oct, there is going to be a hari raya celebration at MD.

Not sure yet if I'm coming or not.

There isn't a memo about it so, update update soon?<3

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I think I like my ___________.

No worries, it's a guy. But I hope it's just a crush yes?

Friendship is better than a relationship unless it's worth being together.

And my answer is just friends. Sorry.

No hard feelings, but, I'm going with the flow I guess. See how things go. (:

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I just broke up with a so-called boytoy. (=O

Again, no hard feelings, it wasn't meant to be I guess.

For some of the people I told, you know what I mean :P

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PS: You're such a great friend, that's why I fell for you. )':

I just don't want to get hurt. nor do I want to hurt you too.

It's just complicated.

Good girls gone baddd.

The song is very cute. :P

I've started revising a few weeks ago, but nothing seems to stick into my mind.

So, I guess I've got to just study harder.

I'm aiming for:

THS: B, Socio: B, Englit: A/B, ACC: C/D/E

I suck in Accounting, Sigh!! But I'll pass it if it's the last think I do!

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I'm also aimming to lose 12 kgs lagi :P

I know it's ridiculous but, nvm.

It could work.

So, I might have to pay 52 days of fastings or 123 days.

With this and working out at night might get me my goal.

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It's kinda true, once a good girl gone out partying there isn't a way to get them down from all the fun! It loosen every pressure and all. So have a go at it.

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I'm planning a party for MD people. I'm still planning on it thou. So, it might or might not happen.

Rocked us.

Thursday:

School was okay, the usual things happens. (:

[ However, there was this guy, sheesh! ): Immature jerk! >:( ]

he said something on msn mcm babi.

In the evening I went to my grandparents from Kota Batu for makan makan. And as usual,

it is very rare to see me in these kinds of functions (:

So, they were really reminising of my late grandma. Claiming I look like her with one glance. (:

Friday:

Went to my cousin's wedding, again a rare appearance. Just wanted to see how an actual wedding works with those traditional thingys and all, 'cause i forgot.

Then left, doing hw and all.

Sat:

There wasn't alot of people in Sociology class. I wasnt sure why. So the play happened, but then, ALOT of giggling heheheh. siuk siuk siuk, thank god the chemistry of our group was ubber awesome. if it wasnt it wouldn't be as fun!

I left school early to do a check up on my lungs bla bla bla. Oh man, was i scared or what?!

hahaha I hateeeeeeeeee hospitals 0.0

My meds changed again. And this one is so weird. hahaha. Freaky and yuckky.

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OMG, sighhh~

ACCOUNTING EHH. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PASS YOUR STINKIN' TEST? >:(

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PS: I know some people are pissed at Chris Brown but, he's worth a second chance.

With love, Fee. ♥

'cause I love you.

SATURDAYYYYYYYYY!!! SHEESEHH.

I don't want to do this play bahhh! ):

Not only is one of our group is absent, I have no mood to change into costume bla bla bla fix this fix that. WHY WHY WHY? >:(

I want sir peter to be there!

HMPH!

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Thursday:

I was still not in a good mood but little things brighten up my day.

I was fasting yesterday and god, did i waste all my energy laughing my ass off. hahaha, at least it was a happy feeling. Rather than being sad and depressed for no reason.

I was thinking of how the play is going to go on without Relz. Cancel? :)

I've got to do my Accounting hw. and my MPR englit thingy. urgh.

A guy friend of mine told me: TO SMILE MOREEE.

I can't help it okay? I'm too much of a think-er (random think-er that is) than to care how my expression looks like. Yes, i know the look i'm giving is more of a grumpy side but I'm not all joys and smiles okay? hehe, I'm smile when I need to.

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Friday:

Pick up my baju for Sunday and go out jalan for Sushi maybe or go see some random people who I need to catch up with.

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Saturday:

Hoping the play would be cancelled, and have another day of smiles and laughter since I'm not fasting.

SUNDAAAAY:

I cant cant cant cant waitt (:

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PS: Hope the play would be on monday, Block 4 or in the afternoon yes?? If not, the play will happen on Sat, block 4 or in the afternoon.

PSS: lovelies, bring the costume just in case okay loves?

PSSS: I miss you ):

With love, Fee ♥

"....hour of hell."

Well, starting off with Saturday morning. All was well, happy smiles, laughter, teasing, careless morning. It wasn't until Block 4. It used to be the only block I look forward to sometimes to lighten up my mood. That was when Sir Peter was there. We were informed that he would be back in 2010. Well, we all wish you luck and we all miss you like shittt. )': but it's for the better you're there recovering. With Lots Of LOVE.

Anyways, coming back to my story: I was whispering away with two of my classmates Panda aka Adi and Relz. Just the usual things we talk about. Randommmm things mostly. We would giggle and such but that morning took a wrong turn with MR. CC, he unforunately stopped talking (as if we were even listening to what he said) and quote:

"if you don't stop sniggering and giggling over there I might as well come to class and not teach at all. It's either you read up to chapter 25 by next lesson or just don't come at all to any of my classes. But if you do, you three would sit seperately from now on. People here might want to listen to what I'm saying."

Like what the hell.

He would always, ALWAYS tagur what we're doing and say remarks that are so lame and mean, god, I feel like ____________ him! )':

Who wouldn't keep themselves entertained to avoid falling asleep in class? Anyone would.

No one is actually listening anyways. Not only have I read most of the chapters up to 25, but I also listen to what you say even if I'm talking to my friends.

The more MR. CC pushes me away, the more rebelious I feel towards him. Like the other day I kinda answered him rudely. pfft, who cares now. You've totally lost my interest in Englit.

Not only am I worrying about my up coming AS exams I have to worry about how the hell I'm supposed to pass with him boring the shit out of me.

I'm hurt and just plain sick with him! I'm not a teacher's pet. I don't grab attention. I avoid putting myself in those shoes of people who would want to impress him! PFFT.

EAT ME WHY DON'T YOU?

Anyways, I'm putting an effort on trying to learn by myself and hope for the best that I could do this.

Amin.

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To the better news. Saturday night I planned to sleepover at Syaz's house. She told me she's bring me to a party. haha (Short notice) So, I perked up my hair and put on some clothes fit for the occation, nothing fancy. So went to her house around 7+ was late an hour for:

Kenken's 18th birthday party

Happy birthday girl! (:

So we had FUUUUNNNN!! Met up with SHAHHHH BEBEHH! \m/ and had all the giggles and so. I also unexpectedly met my childhood friend from UK. Ruddin! I so didn't think that was him (: awww, we grew! (apakan!!)

And there was si denngg (: saying when he saw me :

"Deng, tercium ku VS mu dari jauh ahh."

ANDDDD

Made new friends I guess. (:

We said our goodbyes at around 11.45 pm. Syaz and I all sleepy and tired went back to her place and 15 mins of arriving home BOOOM tidur.

And todayyyyy!! Just stayed at Syaz's place and ate ate ate ate ate. (: I ate sweeeet, yummmmmy, thingsssss. =P

Ohh and had problems in Syaz's toilet! I turned the water the worng way and then it became so hot, mcm sauna! hahaha O=) sorry.

Syaz saw abit tooo much of me. ASTAHHH. ;)

Unfortunately, my brother came to pick me up at 5.

Went home and gone online blablabla, watched TV and here I am now. Vlogggingzgzgzgz.

It's 11.28 pm and I should be asleep now.

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Well, until next time my pretties!!

With love, Fee. ♥

Ouccch.

Well, first day of school was fast. I ended up not feeling well during lunch. I wonder why..

I don't think I've got the flu (Nauzubillah) but yea, I'm currently having a headache. Now I know what my holiday hw are, I could now relax and do it tomorrow.

School was funnnnn, yet boring.

For English Lit. we're starting Jane Eyre. We've got a nice book for ourselves.

We were also told that there would be a production of Twelth Night this year.

I don't know if it's a must but I think I'd rather do A view from a bridge. It's easier.

Dear Sir Peter, Please come back, We miss you alotttt! ):

For Sociology, everything went slow but "learn-able" hehe. Observation is really easy.. thou the names are a pain!

For THS, found out almost no one did their holiday homework, (which was kinda a relief, and catching up with what to do, it's just gonna take a few mins to do it.) Copy paste (Y)

Unfortunately for Accounting class, I didn't go in due to feeling abit weird. I feel really tired, headache, tummyache, coughing and sneezing. urgh. I don't want to be sick, even if it's the flu. I don't want it. Must LEARN. )':

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I hope I feel better tomorrow.

With love, Fee. ♥

PS: It was like I never liked him, as if he was just another guy. :s

Youth lost.

No, seriously? Are the holidays been extended or what?

Well, if it's not extended, YAY.

I'm ready to hear the music of being absent and not getting my homework.

Let's get it over with.

PS: it wasn't like i was doing anything bad. Exams babe.

Love Happens

Last night I did alot of thinking. I was watching TV and I realised, what I've watched last night was all about trying out the guy you like, or vise versa.

It made me think about what I should do with the guy I like. I guess it's kinda easy for me to let go withou tknowing.

The thing about me is, I fall for someone easily, and I let go easily too.

It's like I'm never serious about what I'm feeling towards them.

But there are some guys that I put an effort on but, as you know, it never came to more than just being friends.

When I want to consertrate on other things and forget about someone, there would always be someone there to make me go head over heels. It's nice and all, but it's just me! I don't ever want to do the first move, knowing I would regret not trying but, it's the best thing to do I guess.

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Yes, yes, I'm blabbing about liking someone bla bla bla, but hey Iit's what I have in my mind right now.

Oh and there is something else I want to point out.

Shouting:

"FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-ZAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH"

in public doesn't win a girl's heart! MY GOD!

Just because my name is on my jersey doesn't mean you have to shout out my name!

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9 days until school reopens. Sigh. I gotta start on my homeworks and especially with Accounting.