"si tae yang.. inda kamu tau si tae yang"

Okay, it's almost the end of December.. And i have to admit i guess this holiday is the most challenging and emotionally draining experience i have ever had.
I don't want to get into it much, it's just annoying that people can't understand the situation i'm in.

Fly away with me.

I just realized I have 5 days until I go to kk, and 6 DAYS until i turn 18 :\
I FEEL OLD.
Freeeeedooooooooooooooooooooom.
I might go to Miri tomorrow too. To buy contacts and specs.
I don't feel like blogging much.
With love, Fee. <3

Why do people see someone as if they don't have feelings?

Straight to the point, I don't see why people judge people from what they've heard and what they see without getting to know that person.
People is mistaken between shy with proud, joking to dissing.
They'd avoid me, who clearly had personally problems as if i'm going to infect them with something.
You know what's isn't fair? while they're dissing me, I don't diss them. You want to know why? because i don't know them, there is nothing to diss when i dont even know them? sure if you knew me for years, yes.. you have certain things you annoyed of.
But people who hear stories about me and diss me like they've know me that's like fucked up.
Why do you like dissing people for no reason? Did i ever did anything to you? eventhou i'm annoying it doesn't give you the right to diss and hate me.
I'm not trying to be mihir or anything but as a muslim, hate is just a sin. why be sinful for something silly?
So if you're dissing me now, lets see if you'd be successful or not (:
"You don't belong here."
Apadey, This is my country.
What's up with that? Sure I don't belong in your circle but why would I want to be? If you don't respect me then don't hope for my respect.
MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS. (:
♥
Sure, I'm not perfect. I admit with all my heart. But there isn't no point to hate someone just for what you did. I don't hate anyone because it's against who i am.
I don't want to care much. But if you're so lifeless to be still dissing me? what would you get? You wouldn't get any deeds, only sins.
And here to tell you, to just buss off okay? my life, my lies, my dresms. It's my choice to do what I want. Even if you don't like it.
You don't see me saying "ish, annoying jua org ani."
And even if you try to diss me, sure i get hurt, but I'll just smile because I have no comment. why would i comment someone as stupid to be dissing for no reason?
And another thing, everyone has insecurities.
These insecurities are what makes me special, what makes me the actual me.
Deal with it: I'm annoying, loud and maybe too bubbly?
Eventhou you hate me, I'll still smile. There isn't anything to be bitchy about.
♥
You should be grateful, I'm never mad at someone more than 10 mins. Even this i'm writing this post, I've cooled down just after 2 paragraph.
♥
Well, i'm done. (: so, just shut up. Stop dissing.. Bedusa saja. iatah kamu mau tu? mun awu, keep doing it then.
With love, Fee. ♥

okay okay.. you copy down my no.

Well, since the december party is happening we needed to find a Dj and I came across one. So he wanted my no. so he could call me. So we were on the phone. hahaha. cali. (:
Ajim couldn't stop laughing at me. pacah kali.

What a girl wants....

Okay, it's been 2+ weeks of the holidays and i haven't even started to study anything for AS.
Not that i don't put education first, it's just that I'm more dedicated to get my grandad health than my studies. I could not think straight when i havent seen his face, or get any news either bad or good. At least in one day, he DOES revolve around me.

*my cousin, Azimah rosli is currently making fun of Super Junior.* - She's trying to sing Sorry Sorry. -_-'

Anyways, Ryna wanted me to blog about guys. hahaha so yea. (: here it is.
I want a guy with a smile that would make my heart flutter.
I want a guy who could handle me, as to say:
- be there when i'm totally random.
- He doesn't have to be handsome, cute, but as long as he has that killer smile. He'd win my heart anytime
- someone who could understand how i think, understand my mood.
Mostly a guy who could be my best friend. (:

Well, i'm sick of falling in love and not getting it right. It's kind of complicated you see.
It's like, I had a first boyfriend when i was 11. and i think that was the only serious relationship i had.

So i'm saying i don't consider the other relationships i had is anything but childs play. I was in a relationship without any feeling towards the guys (sorry :\)
And i usually end the relationship.
I feel guilty for breaking hearts. hahaha i'd like to think i'm single because that's the karma.

But nevermind, it's not the right time to be in a relationship since i can be easily lose focus on my studies bla bla bla (:

The end. *yawns.

*now jimah is touching me* -_-

Aren't they cute?

Fo sho'

I want to draw:

For AzimahR
Why: 'cause i'm bored that she's not here. ):

Okay, done blogging. (:

"It's BIG BANG!" - T.O.P

Azimah Edited. (: I think Tae Yang is forever be the cutest Korean..
Ohhh~ i sooooooooooooo want to watch Big Bang.

nope, i'm not regretting for confessing.

PS: His lips are sexy, the way he speaks is sexy, the way he dance is sexy. I can't stop listening to him sing. he respects women. ♥

You want to know how i'm feeling? (: well, I tell you now, if you just want to diss me GET OUT FROM MY PAGE. but if you really want to read: here it is.

I'm getting over a guy who is my so-called best friend. We used to be so close, talking carelessly and just having fun. Not until i fell for him. I confessed. And I guess he rejected. But i couldn't just drop the fact that i still have feelings for him. At first I didn't understand what i was feeling. Just thinking this is just a regular crush. the one i could just get over in a week or so. I haven't explained much about my feelings towards him. The fact that I might like take interest in someone, doesn't mean that i have sincere feelings for him. I don't fall inlike with someone that often.

One night i thought, what could hurt? i've faced more things than getting hurt. I'm strong they say. but i have a fragile heart, when i feel sad.. it takes along time to heal even if i put on a smile and laugh along.
That night i thought, after seeing a guy i fell for earlier this year walking in with 5 different girls, what could hurt me more than seeing him like that? I was wrong, as usual as i'm helplessly clueless about love.
I thought this could happen, seeing that it was going so perfectly. But i guess we were meant to be as friends. I'm happy that we could stay as friends. I don't mind. I thought this feeling could just vanish without being hurt. But whenever i see him, sure, i smile but deep inside my heart jumps. Jumps in a bad way.
No guy should leave a girl in hopes. It's pointless and stupid. And i fell for it.
I don't blame him, it's just me. I feel stupid to be thinking that i could do this.

Now i feel empty and just thoughtlessly dreaming. I prefer it this way, no heart pain. which is good. (:
I guess now, not to think about love and start being serious on my studies.
I am offically an Upper six student in Maktab duli
I'm sure i didnt do so good on my November AS. Well, this June I'll make sure I get all Cs above. amin.

*I saw my first shooting star. I wished upon it. (: and I hope it happens. I need all the luck i could get.

I'm at the stage where I don't regret doing the things I would not normally do. It is time for me to crack my shell and go out and see the world and let them see the side of me that they challage me to see.

I will miss you my dear cousin, have fun at Kota kinerbaluzzzz. :D Azimerbebeh.

I'll blog more soon.

With love, Mrs Tae Yang aka Fee. :)

He's hot and I like it.

Alot of things happened and is about to happen. (:
Firsty, I'm done and over with my crush.
Secondly, the december party is GOING TO HAPPEN!
Thirdly, My grandad is doing fine. and recovering well.

The Fee.