all looking pretty.

the holidays are here! (:

I cut my hair! i'm still getting used to it so.... I still can't work it~

the dye is around my fringe.. which is kinda funny. Might redye it soon, maybe a light brown? :)
it had been 3 days of the holidays and IT'S BORING! There's nothing to do but homework, and I'm too lazy to go out. I've just started doing my English literature homework, which is just mainly designing things.. so i'm have a blast there.
I'm currently going to facials, 'cause i complained to my mum i looked ugly one day. So now... this is what i get. aiyaa. and this wed, i'm going to another facial to check the results. I hope no more picik picik. ): damn.
"no pain, no gain" - Ron would say that to me.
I had a study group with Ryna and Lynn yesterday, but we ended up watching Dear John, which was sad and.. romantic. (the fact that they couldn't stop bullying me about db was.. embarrassing)
oh i just remembered, last night Ron chatted with me. He said "no wonder Rimba hujan ah, Ryna nangis bah." teehee.
Hi rynn, if you're reading.
And so today, we're going to have another study group, hope we'll do SOMETHING productive. hehehe. no more watch watch his video aaah?~
I'm still sleepy, it's 10.35am.. I should take a shower now and get ready to go to Rynas'
I'll blog more soon. InshaAllah.
ps: there isn't time to think of what is what, and what's not. just go with the flow, and get over all the pain. leave the judgment to Allah.

♥

Fly away with me.

I just realized I have 5 days until I go to kk, and 6 DAYS until i turn 18 :\
I FEEL OLD.
Freeeeedooooooooooooooooooooom.
I might go to Miri tomorrow too. To buy contacts and specs.
I don't feel like blogging much.
With love, Fee. <3

nope, i'm not regretting for confessing.

PS: His lips are sexy, the way he speaks is sexy, the way he dance is sexy. I can't stop listening to him sing. he respects women. ♥

You want to know how i'm feeling? (: well, I tell you now, if you just want to diss me GET OUT FROM MY PAGE. but if you really want to read: here it is.

I'm getting over a guy who is my so-called best friend. We used to be so close, talking carelessly and just having fun. Not until i fell for him. I confessed. And I guess he rejected. But i couldn't just drop the fact that i still have feelings for him. At first I didn't understand what i was feeling. Just thinking this is just a regular crush. the one i could just get over in a week or so. I haven't explained much about my feelings towards him. The fact that I might like take interest in someone, doesn't mean that i have sincere feelings for him. I don't fall inlike with someone that often.

One night i thought, what could hurt? i've faced more things than getting hurt. I'm strong they say. but i have a fragile heart, when i feel sad.. it takes along time to heal even if i put on a smile and laugh along.
That night i thought, after seeing a guy i fell for earlier this year walking in with 5 different girls, what could hurt me more than seeing him like that? I was wrong, as usual as i'm helplessly clueless about love.
I thought this could happen, seeing that it was going so perfectly. But i guess we were meant to be as friends. I'm happy that we could stay as friends. I don't mind. I thought this feeling could just vanish without being hurt. But whenever i see him, sure, i smile but deep inside my heart jumps. Jumps in a bad way.
No guy should leave a girl in hopes. It's pointless and stupid. And i fell for it.
I don't blame him, it's just me. I feel stupid to be thinking that i could do this.

Now i feel empty and just thoughtlessly dreaming. I prefer it this way, no heart pain. which is good. (:
I guess now, not to think about love and start being serious on my studies.
I am offically an Upper six student in Maktab duli
I'm sure i didnt do so good on my November AS. Well, this June I'll make sure I get all Cs above. amin.

*I saw my first shooting star. I wished upon it. (: and I hope it happens. I need all the luck i could get.

I'm at the stage where I don't regret doing the things I would not normally do. It is time for me to crack my shell and go out and see the world and let them see the side of me that they challage me to see.

I will miss you my dear cousin, have fun at Kota kinerbaluzzzz. :D Azimerbebeh.

I'll blog more soon.

With love, Mrs Tae Yang aka Fee. :)

It's music all around.

It's december, another 26 days until i turn 18! :O I feel so old. Legal but old.
Right now it is raining. i think i fits with my mood, I'm not sure if i'm happy or sad.
I think i'm both.
I feel like i've left something behind. With all of the dilemma i've been through, now I feel so broken down to bits that I will not understand, and I don't know what could bring me back up.
The reason to smile is limited, I should've listened to my friends.
"Just forget about him, you'll just end up hurt."
But again, i couldn't help wonder. :\ i still do like him, and the fact that he does want me to forget
my feelings for him hurts.
I will get over it eventually. Just slowly I guess.
"I realized that you're not in a good mood"
I've just got to an understanding, I will never get ANY guy i end up liking.
My grandad's sick.
So, what's the point of liking someone?
Let's just break my heart all over again and get over with it.

I want:

I'd want an Skull Candy headphones, Rocketdog flats, a new Guess watch, and a iphone please?
I also want loads of loads of outfits, and handbags and and MAKE UP. :D
I'm going to KK for my birthday, so I'm not sure if the party will commence.
Maybe we'll celebrate during new years. (:
♥ ♥ ♥
PS: babah, babah ke KL belikan adik somethingg!! (:
So, it's the holidays and I don't know what to do!
I want to fix my hair and just go out with all of me friends.
Can't wait to see Emma!! long time no see baby! :D