Everybody's fool.

There is many things I want to say, there is so much things I want to point out. With no hard feelings, I would like to start my post by saying:

Yes, I'm always greedy for love and the things I want I can't always have.

The things I've lost I could not repay back with all the tears that has leaked. All the numbness I feel, all the moods I'm feeling, that's me, leave it alone and I'll figure out a way to come back to my sences.

"Even heroes have their rights to bleed and feel"

I'm much as human as anyone else, let me be moody, let me be happy, let me be what I want to be, I'm not doing anything to anyone that could harm them now, not physically or mentally or emotionally. I've been scarred with all the three of these condition, and I had enough.

I'm bless with the people who could understand that: I am not perfect.

Alhamdulilah.

And I also feel indifferent about the people who still feel hate or dislike towards me. Feel whatever you want towards me, I'm sure I'll live a little bit longer than that yes?

Say whatever you want to say, just get the facts right.

I am who I am.

I am Siti Nurhafizah Binti Ismail. Plainly human with feelings.

I am not trying to rule the world here, I'm just trying to live every other day like we are meant to do in this life.

You might not like the my sad side but, when I do finally break down.. it's supposed to be understandable yes? Everyone BLEEDS.

But nevermind, at least life is being reasonable.

I am happy, but I just want more. That's my problem. Too selfish.

Once I'm hurt now, I cry easily, and when I cry, it'll go on for days.

Just bear with me a little bit longer.

It is hard to believe?

I do not feel hate nor dislike towards people I used to care about? I feel indifferent.

I do not live in hate. It only brings all the "emo-ness" in me. I might dislike, but it takes hours for me to just let it go. Easy as ABC.

I'm done. The End.

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Well, this is where it starts. It's nothing to be effected, it's just all around us lately and I just want to point it out to people what it's doing to others.

I'm not trying to hurt anyone. I'm just pointing out.

This world has so much hate, it has ultered our way of seeing the world.

I've learnt my lesson on "sindir-ing" people. There is nothing good about it.

And yes, I'm a sinner. So be it.

But, seeing others close to me do it. It's just disturbingly disapointing.

Let them be, there is no point of hating them and posting things that would make more hate. It's a done deal.

Sexy-nessss.

Hmmmmmmmm. You think you're better?

BEAT IT!

One of my idol has passed away on the 25th June, 2009.

May you rest in peace.

And may Allah be with you.

Mikael Yusof Jackson.

You will forever be my idol. ♥ ♥ ♥

A.N.G.E.L

Monday:

Well, this was an unplanned day at Jimm ♥ house. She took some pictures and these are some of them ( Above)

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Sunday:

Had BBQ at Ryna's. YUMMMMMMMYYY~

Oh, and Happy belated Father's day! (;

Love Happens

Last night I did alot of thinking. I was watching TV and I realised, what I've watched last night was all about trying out the guy you like, or vise versa.

It made me think about what I should do with the guy I like. I guess it's kinda easy for me to let go withou tknowing.

The thing about me is, I fall for someone easily, and I let go easily too.

It's like I'm never serious about what I'm feeling towards them.

But there are some guys that I put an effort on but, as you know, it never came to more than just being friends.

When I want to consertrate on other things and forget about someone, there would always be someone there to make me go head over heels. It's nice and all, but it's just me! I don't ever want to do the first move, knowing I would regret not trying but, it's the best thing to do I guess.

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Yes, yes, I'm blabbing about liking someone bla bla bla, but hey Iit's what I have in my mind right now.

Oh and there is something else I want to point out.

Shouting:

"FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-ZAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH"

in public doesn't win a girl's heart! MY GOD!

Just because my name is on my jersey doesn't mean you have to shout out my name!

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9 days until school reopens. Sigh. I gotta start on my homeworks and especially with Accounting.

From Syaz's Camera!

Well, here are some of the pictures they took! I was absent! Siuk kamu ah! ): And yet, I'm the one who's blogging it. (;

Get well soon Sir Peter Holland!

Sorry I wasn't there but, here is the least I could do (;

Can't wait for you to come back!!

With love, everyone in your BE english lit class ♥ ♥

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Well, here is picture taken by Syaz of me at Tungku beach I think.

(yes, my hair is all messed up but, nevermind)

And here are my random photos taken by me.

Yes, boredom strikes.

With love, Fee. ♥

Names?

Well, Syaz thought up nicknames for herself, me and Mezz:

Me:

Fifilaffsalot.

I think maybe because I laugh at almost everything that moves.

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Syaz:
syaaaaaaaaaaaaazzz says:
advrtisement lady =.=

I think maybe she has this tone, whenever she's telling us to take something it sounds like she's adversting it.

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Messoni:

Meth; a yellowminded barney.

I think you could guess the reason behind the nickname, but I'm not sure about barney thou.

(; hahah cute eh.

With love, Fee. ♥ ♥

*burps.

I finally got my voice back! Go away sick sick sick illness! (;

I think I've finally let go of superman.

Sigh.

Well, that's the end of that I guess. I hope I won't like anyone ELSE from NOW. Doubting it but yea.. (;

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I'm not in the mood to say anything else.

"Girls hates waiting." Yes, it's true. haha, I hate waiting too. If you could just hurry up the process of replying, that would be great. (:

Bye, with love. Fee. ♥

Come back here to the place we meet.

ou You know what? I'm annoyed! ish. Banar tah. ):<

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Whatever.

As so many has asked me the same question again and again:
"Fee, when are you gonna get a boyfriend?"

I, myself don't know when. Everytime I think he's the right one, he never is. I know teens aren't supposed to fall in love at our age but, it's not like we could help it is it?
I guess being single is a great thing and all, we get to do what we want without feeling guilty or making someone feel uncomfortable about it.
Flirting carelessly isn't a problem.
There wouldn't be anything to think about and pout about at night.
Nothing to worry about. nothing to be paranoid of.
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The idea of just being in a relationship is like:
Feeling in love and being loved is just the nicest feeling ever.
Finding someone who could understand the real you is the best thing ever.
Someone to just be yourself and not be judged, and they love you for who you are.
Someone to hold close and tell your ridiculous stories to.
Just snuggle up to them without feeling unwanted.
Someone who could keep up with the moodswings, tantrums, tears and screams.
Someone who'll spoil our greed.
Loving the person endlessly, without care of the world.
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Even just having a crush is the remedy of reality sometimes:
It makes you feel something other than the normal feelings, it's more of a happier, cheery feeling.
There is something to look forward to everyday.
All the time I would blush and have the butterflies just seeing him pass by.
Something to think about if you're daydreaming.
It makes you smile more than ever.
The things that would be if everything were in place.
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There is also a downside of crushing or loving someone:
We get hurt with the little things they do.
We get all doubtful and wonders why the heck do we even like them at the first place.
The thought "does he even like me?" is just so unbearable!
The doubt that he'll never notice you even if we wear neon lights.
The feeling where we don't know what's with their behaviour or either he's just playing around due to an inside joke.
Well, there are so many things that could break someone's heart.
The only way is to just move on and avoid liking someone yes?

:s sigh. hahaha Well, I'm done pouring out what I wanted to say.
With love, Fee. ♥

Do you think you can find it?

It's the 2nd day of the holidays and I am liking it! (; I just got back home at around 8+pm from Syaz's place. I sleptover there last night. I had fun!

Her mum complimented on me saying that I am a beauty! eseh! All I could say is thanks!

Sha joined in too! which was a blast! (;

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Ahhhh~ the holidays. A time to relax and forget all the things that has anything to do with WORK.

My plans for this holidays are:

1. Do the holiday homeworks given before next week.

2. Learn the chords for the guitar and think of a song to perform.

3. Spa day with Syaz.

4. Memorize the lines and get the costume for the play "A view from a bridge."

5. Lose another 5-8kgs before the school reopens (like that would happen!)

6. Watch all the up-coming movies! ): TRANSFORMERSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

7. Think up something more exciting to do! ):

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Starting the holidays with a fever isn't the best way is it? GOD! ): The weather isn't so friendly lately, hot hot hot hot and hot! And there has been fires EVERY WHERE!! ): I hope the poeple living near those areas are okay!

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Our English Lit. teacher has left for the Uk to do a heart surgery, I wish you goodluck Mr. Peter Holland and we'll welcome you with open arms and smiles as promised! ♥ !

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Sports day! All I could say is: HOT. (:

Well, I seriously don't have anything to blog about, until next time babies! ♥ ♥

With love, Fee.

Sliver Lining.

Well, in the darkest room there is always a light that shines so bright. A silver lining is always there in the darkest times.

All has been forgotten and lost for the past few months, I have even lost hope of finding the light to my two best friends after hurting them but somehow they have forgiven me for what I have done and so have I. Last night was a miracle, we all said our apologies.

Even if it wouldn't be the same for us, you two would always have a piece of my heart. Everyone has got to go their own way somehow, but I was us to be friends no matter what. Even if I'm no longer a best friend, I'm honoured to be just a friend.

I will always love you two. With love. Fee ♥

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Hello.

Well, I'm back blogging (; Alot of things happened, happy and also sad things for the past few months. But I'm done and over it.

Well, I've started blogging again for the sake of the holidays. (Getting all bored and all y'know?)

*not only have i heard someone's been using my name to spam people but okay... F* you (;*

Here goes: 12th June, 2009.

Happy holidays people!!

The second term of the holidays. ♥