boy, you know how to piss me off.

well, i'm going through my moodswings today. Sorry if i snapped.

i have no mood to blog much today.

i'm here to say, i'm dissapointed.

tisk.

Fee.

Get away.

Okay, I have my AS Sociology tomorrow and I've only just started on Socialization. I have the whole day to cramp my head with all-things-Sociology.

My mood has been going up and down the meter for the past few days. And I think it's 'cause I'm inlike, my finals sucks, and my AS is coming up.

I really don't know what to think of... I think I'm retaining (if that is even possible) I guess my MPRs are fine. but my finals sucked.

I'll hope for the best.

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Goodluck to the people who's taking Os, AS, A2.

We'll do great, inshaAllah if we study hard.

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I think I like this someone, but I know we're not meant to be more than friends. I just can't explain it in words. When I see him, even in my not-so-good-mood, he never fails to cheer me up and make me smile the whole day.

The thing is, I denied anything going on between us.

Even if people think we look fine together, it's just that, I guess I'm just the one feeling it.

I noticed what I felt about him a week ago. I never thought it would happen since we were such good friends. I'm trying to get over the fact that I like this person more than a friend.

And this CAN'T happen.

But these feelings just came without any warning.

I may have crushes on Wonderboy and Superman.

These feelings were different because I loved the idea of liking them because of their "so-called" hot image. Like fans who praise on celebs.

But after getting to know him, I enjoy being around him, just talking about random things, like usual friends do. I don't know if he actually listens to my crap but he looks like he does.

They say I should ignore and avoid looking for him all the time. But I can't help it, I just love being around him so much.

Though, I'm willing enough to give him away to a girl he could be happy with.

For the past few days, I felt like I couldn't speak to him like I usually do without falling in deeper. Somehow, the only way to make me stay friends with him is to talk less to him, avoid one-on-one conversations. I know he doesn't notice it but, I hurt inside thinking we're not meant to be. I just want to be with someone who I can be around without being called a freak.

Men typically see me only as a best friend because I tend to understand guys more sometimes.

I'm not so ignorant.

It's stupid really, I'm falling for someone I can't have. I usually do.

I may like alot of guys during this year, but only one guy managed to win my heart properly and that was back in February.

I'm more of a friend first then a serious relationship. And yes, a VERY SERIOUS relationship is what I'm after.

He doesn't have to be handsome, cute, rich, poor, or disable. As long as he's got a goal and a passion for the future. He'll be the first to inspire me to do things I never thought possible.

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I do really want to explain how I feel but I can't seem to understand what I'm feeling.

I can't get him out of my mind!

I need him out of my mind!

urgh.

make over.

Well, I'm dye-ing my hair Dark Auburn. I want to see something different done to my hair. My virgin black hair (did try to dye once but didn't work)

Bye bye black, hello auburn.

Hope everything turns the right shade of colour. ♥

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To a lighter note:

Exams Finals are gonna be over TOMORROWWW.

But I have AS in a week. Greaaaaaaaaaaat.

Everything ends at 13th November!

Sighhh.

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This 10th of Oct, there is going to be a hari raya celebration at MD.

Not sure yet if I'm coming or not.

There isn't a memo about it so, update update soon?<3

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I think I like my ___________.

No worries, it's a guy. But I hope it's just a crush yes?

Friendship is better than a relationship unless it's worth being together.

And my answer is just friends. Sorry.

No hard feelings, but, I'm going with the flow I guess. See how things go. (:

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I just broke up with a so-called boytoy. (=O

Again, no hard feelings, it wasn't meant to be I guess.

For some of the people I told, you know what I mean :P

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PS: You're such a great friend, that's why I fell for you. )':

I just don't want to get hurt. nor do I want to hurt you too.

It's just complicated.