Okay, I have my AS Sociology tomorrow and I've only just started on Socialization. I have the whole day to cramp my head with all-things-Sociology.
My mood has been going up and down the meter for the past few days. And I think it's 'cause I'm inlike, my finals sucks, and my AS is coming up.
I really don't know what to think of... I think I'm retaining (if that is even possible) I guess my MPRs are fine. but my finals sucked.
I'll hope for the best.
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Goodluck to the people who's taking Os, AS, A2.
We'll do great, inshaAllah if we study hard.
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I think I like this someone, but I know we're not meant to be more than friends. I just can't explain it in words. When I see him, even in my not-so-good-mood, he never fails to cheer me up and make me smile the whole day.
The thing is, I denied anything going on between us.
Even if people think we look fine together, it's just that, I guess I'm just the one feeling it.
I noticed what I felt about him a week ago. I never thought it would happen since we were such good friends. I'm trying to get over the fact that I like this person more than a friend.
And this CAN'T happen.
But these feelings just came without any warning.
I may have crushes on Wonderboy and Superman.
These feelings were different because I loved the idea of liking them because of their "so-called" hot image. Like fans who praise on celebs.
But after getting to know him, I enjoy being around him, just talking about random things, like usual friends do. I don't know if he actually listens to my crap but he looks like he does.
They say I should ignore and avoid looking for him all the time. But I can't help it, I just love being around him so much.
Though, I'm willing enough to give him away to a girl he could be happy with.
For the past few days, I felt like I couldn't speak to him like I usually do without falling in deeper. Somehow, the only way to make me stay friends with him is to talk less to him, avoid one-on-one conversations. I know he doesn't notice it but, I hurt inside thinking we're not meant to be. I just want to be with someone who I can be around without being called a freak.
Men typically see me only as a best friend because I tend to understand guys more sometimes.
I'm not so ignorant.
It's stupid really, I'm falling for someone I can't have. I usually do.
I may like alot of guys during this year, but only one guy managed to win my heart properly and that was back in February.
I'm more of a friend first then a serious relationship. And yes, a VERY SERIOUS relationship is what I'm after.
He doesn't have to be handsome, cute, rich, poor, or disable. As long as he's got a goal and a passion for the future. He'll be the first to inspire me to do things I never thought possible.
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I do really want to explain how I feel but I can't seem to understand what I'm feeling.
I can't get him out of my mind!
I need him out of my mind!
urgh.
