away.

i feel depressed.

Accounting ):

Accounting SUCKS.
My exams are tomorrow and this is the first time I'm facing a subject where I'm not ready to take it. I seriously don't know what I'm going to do! I've studied, but every question seems DIFFERENT. hoi.

ps: i wish you'd sing to me. ♥

Vintage wish.

one of those days.

Okay, it's one of those days when I feel bored. (:
i miss my cousin Azimah Rosli!
Goofing around and non stop conversations until the early morning, and jogging the next day as if we have enough energy :p♥
I know you've been waiting for this love.My recommend songs:
Usher - Hey daddy's (daddy's home)
Colbie Cailliat - I never told you
Train - Hey, soul sister.
♥
Seriously, it's sexy.

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I cried because I can't have you.

I wish I kept you a secret, so in my own world you'd be my prince that I'd run away with. You used to be an unrealized fantasy that I did not ponder on. You were just an image I'd look at, a boy I'd just simply smile at without realizing the possibilities. I'd never have expected to have feelings for you. And yet here I am, not too long ago that I'd started to see you in a different light, somehow now when you pass by my heart beats twice as fast, I'd smile to myself thinking of you. Although you will never see me, to you I'd bend in the crowds. You'd stand out, and I wish this was a secret.
I feel confused, what is this feeling I'm feeling? Is it a crush? Is it just curiosity? Is it another way to forget someone? I believe you were the only way I could escape this stress. I'd like to think this is a feeling, I want to believe. But I can't lie to myself knowing I can have you, but in reality, I don't even know you. I'm upset because I fell for you and you don't even know me.
People may not understand what I'm feeling, it's more to blaming myself for falling, not knowing that this is going to hurt. Yes, I've done it once, assuming too much and getting disappointed all over again.I'm trying to slow down this feeling, wait until I'm certain, but I can't just either stop or keep going.
♥
Okay, I seriously need to study. I'll start working on it tomorrow. ♥

Ps: all i could think of is you. ♥

"wherever there is a mole, there you are"

Today was funnnnn. (: i like. So many things happened today. My god, anything could happen and change the things you've got planned.

Well, this morning everything was dull and rainy. Today was relaxing to me, (no accounting, we didn't do anything for GP) and i decided to have my PS. My heart couldn't stop fluttering, my friends kept on teasing me about DB, yea, I just couldn't wait to see him (: Everyone has been asking me who's DB. You'd just have to figure out BY YOURSELF. Please don't ask around, it's embarrassing. And once you know, just keep it to yourself. ): I'm to... idk, it's just awkward. It's not even official.

Oh, I saw him laugh and smile for the first time. (: teeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeee. So anyways, in the afternoon I didn't have Accounting class, so I went down early. That's when I caught a glimpse of his smile. OH. hehehe i'm still angau.

Ryna wanted me to blog something, Hi rynn. If you're reading. I'll blog at the bottom ah? sabar.

So at around 3+ Kojack picked us up for late lunch at Nyonya (sp?) (:
In the car Jeebs and Nad kept on mentioning I keep on saying OMG, like shizzzzzzzz. haha cali lah.
So when we got back to school, it was around 4, Jeebs and Ryna were the first to go home, so it was Me and Nad. I was bored so we walked over to DB sitting area. (: and I talked about why and how it's just, maybe just a feeling or I really want this. I just don't know. I didn't really have much time talking to them. Just telling them what I felt and stuff.
♥

So here Ryna's post:
Hi rynn, you want to know what I want to blog about? I want to blog about why I think David Beckham won't notice me. Well, firstly, I just think I'm not his type, sure we could be friends, it's just that, what makes him want to change what's he's comfortable with? Being around his friends, just being on the down low. While I'm loud, silly and loves to be around people. Why would he notice a girl like me? sure notice as in sees around, but nothing special.
I'll continue blogging nanti. I don't know what to blog about...

love doesn't come around so often.

Sometimes people need to get away from reality, and for me, it's complicated. All I have to look forward to is smiles and laughter with my friends. It's enough to get me through the days, and I have to admit, i'm loving life the way it is now. No drama, no insecurities, just stressful exams. I don't really have anything to complain about. But sometimes I wish I could just fall in love, and meet a guy who is so perfect. I know I should just wait until it comes, but I tend to like guys who doesn't seem to meet me half way (if you know what I mean). True, it's easy to have a crush here and there but it is difficult to find someone to love. Why not now? When I'm ready. I may found those who could hold me, feel me, and love me, but they just don't feel the same way. I really want to wait, but now, when I'm matured (kinda (: ) to have a relationship, it never seems to come.

I wouldn't consider my past crushes is anything serious, it seems silly when I think it over again. God, how gullible I was to think they we're good enough for me. I should listen to my friends, when they say "fee, why him? you could find someone else" it's soooo true. I've never been confident when it comes to love. I'd feel insecure. Like I'm not noticeable enough for him. For now he may seem as a crush, but wherever the direction is, either love or friends no neither, I guess it's also not worth it. I want to put this one to an effort. (:

You're like the song in my ipod stuck in replay :D okayyyyyyyyyy, Cheesy much! I call him David Beckham, he's flawless and he takes my breath away. When he walks by me, it's like fresh breeze, of course I'd giggle at the sight of him. I like the look he has, that "hmmmmm........" look. I like the way he walks, the way he dresses, the way he is so shy. And better yet, he sings and plays guitar. Isn't that sexy? The first time I heard your voice yesterday, I couldn't stop smiling. :D I'd like to get to know you better ♥
I'm taking it slowly, and I hope you'd wait.
Wednesday is the day, I hope. It's either make it or break it. ):
I hope we will have a good start, I'll prove you wrong and I'm not what they say I am.

PS: I still think your voice is the cutest.